
I can’t imagine a life without being hated and rejected. My birth mothers friends were all set to adopt her unborn baby to keep the baby out of the system in case my birth mother returned to the mental hospital. My white birth mother never considered the possibility that the baby would be anything other than white. Certainly that white married couple must have been horrified when they saw my little brown face. Ruth had never told them about that single encounter Ina South Carolina mental hospital. The guy was a Vietnam vet who was”trying to prove he was crazy when he shot his ex-girlfrien-d. But only in the arm!” And my birth mother she was there bc she “didn’t have to prove she was crazy anymore cause it’s all in the file